Currently Listening Between the Heart and the Synapse By The Receiving End of Sirens The War of All Against All see related

haha. thees ees meereeam, posteenk for nate. who ees absentee from xanga. eet's okay.

wee haff a show thees friday night, you should all come. more eenfo on our band's myspace.

nate and mee like thee reeceeffing end of sirens, wheech ees what i am leesteneeng to.

Currently Listening Menos el Oso By Minus the Bear see related

'HE'

The irony of cold is that it burns my face, each inhale is as discomforting as the last.

It makes me question what the sun's purpose is sometimes, whether its designed for heat, or to light my path.

Heat is comfort, and i am not comfortable, but shed some light on my path and I'll begin to see a shadow.

a vague image of someone i know, someone that has always followed me, or someone who has lead the way.

So who really lands each time a step is taken, me or 'he'.  Does my foot strike the ground, or does 'he' take it for me first.

Is 'he' even real, or is 'he' more than that, is 'he' something that lives in me and around me.

Does 'he' feel the pain i do? Does 'he' rejoice the way i do? Does 'he' even look up to me, or down on me?

Whatever 'he' is, 'he' is my compass, my sun dial, and my friend. 

So many times I forget he's there, only when my heart aches, and i look down

'He's' looking back at me, landing each step as i do.

Thank You....... 'He'

Currently Listening From Under the Cork Tree By Fall Out Boy see related

Yeah i put it, im listening to Fall Out Boy.  So im a pansy emo kid, go suck a lemon if u dont like it.  ive been in an experimental music stage and i feel like these guys r really talented,(at least the drummer is).  Dont worry though, im still listening to Blindside and other face melting stuff.

 idk what happened today, i feel pathetic.  I was in OT and i was just so exausted that i couldnt take it, i neede to go back to sleep, so i skipped out early went back to my room to snooze planning to get up for psych.  Well my biological clock didn't wake me up until 11:30, so i decided to just role over and see how long i really could sleep, turns out 1:30 was the number for the day boys, i feel disgusting though.

your effect is nothing i cant handle, the axkwardness isnt enough for me to run.

I dont want you to feel uncomfortable but it seems inevitable. (that goes for me too) 

It's neither of our fault,  cause if we tried this, im sure we'd not have as much trouble forgeting about it.

Tonight is gonna be fun, and i cant wait to go.  The movie is gonna be so sweet and i cant wait to blow all my money on theatre food, j/k.  Im just really hungry right now cause i slept through lunch, so i would eat anything, EVEN YOU, WHOSE READIN THIS!!!!!! God bless you guys, and ill c ya around campus, or around............life. bye.

Currently Listening The Everglow By Mae see related

Yesterday was a funny day, i had fun dancin like a fool at Redener's, we'll do it again, o wait we are gonna do it again, tonight (wink wink).  I really hope it snows tonight like freakin crazy, cause i think we should all go buy snow tubes and demand respect from some of these hills around here. I have a lot of work to do though, but that doesnt mean im gonna do it.

I honestly havent been feeling like myself lately and i wish i could figure out y but maybe its a change, that i need to have.  maybe its for the better but who likes change at first unless you can assure yourself that its a good thing.  But i kinda left my crystal ball in the shop and idk right now if it is a good thing, but i dont think ill find out for a while either, and thats ok because God does not hold what is good from those who are upright.  O well, time will tell.

Psalm 84:11

For the Lord God is sun and shield; the Lord bestows favor and honor; no good thing does he withhold from those whose walk is blameless.

Currently Listening I Wish We All Could Win By The Afters see related

A crazy weekend turned me into a crazy kid.  It's been a roller coaster w/ this band but i wouldnt have it any other way, i have definately grown up to this point but theres still more to come and i cant wait to see what God has next for me.  Yesterday was the most inspiring time of my life, not for my personal life but for God's.  He showed me some things that I have never seen in my life and believe it or not i actually feel like a new person.

its the light that strikes,
that burns inside of me.
its a blinding light,
but somehow i can see, again.
when i've lost my way.
its becoming very clear.
and its coming around again.
every now and again sometime,
i get lost on the wind of a dream.
the air gets clean and the seas get wide
and i can do anything.
Mae-Anything

I went to Tom Allen's church today and it really spoke to me about our issue of dislike towards us.  I became clear to me that it's not us they hate, but it is Christ they are rejecting.  It know it sounds bold to say that people from our christian college hate us, and other christian bands have a problem with us, but how many times have we personally rejected Christ even when we've known the truth.  All I can say to this is Rock on and not take it personal but lay it on God.  If anything would show that we r doin somethin right, it would have been last night.  Musically we may have fell on our faces but all those kids heard was the message, and thats what i call a ministry.

As far as other problems and awkward issues, i want to try and fix the world and help but i understand that its not my job and i cant expect to solve some problems, and thats totally ok.  Im just gonna give it to God and be as receptive to people about it as i can.